| Finally an Off Day |
[Jul. 12th, 2006|02:04 pm] |
It's been 10 days since I've been able to get on here. Work, work, work...I don't want to complain too much since I do have a decent job and it pays the bills...
Got up early this morning and went to get my Mustang an oil change. It took nearly 2 hours at the Ford dealership, man was I bored. Afterwards I went to Bennigan's and enjoyed some quiet time in a nice air conditioned building, today it's supposed to get to 100 degrees here, and I believe it actually was by noon. Had a nice burger, watched some sports, and smoked a few cigs. Since I was alone I had some time to contemplate and think about things again. Trying to get everything worked out because soon I may be moving away from San Antonio but I'm not sure where to yet (depends on where my job sends me).
I have a lot of decisions to make for the move. Major decisions. More on that later though.
Since I'm such a neat-freak, I have to jump off here now and go straighten up the house. It really bothers me when things are cluttered. |
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| Tang Poem on a Rainy Sunday Morning |
[Jul. 2nd, 2006|01:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mellow | ] |
I roll out of bed this morning and fire up my Marlboro Light. Outside it's raining fairly steady and now I know why it was so hard to get up. Other than the steady pounding of the rain, there was no hot Texas sun beaming through the window making you uncomfortable. Nice and dark. It's also quiet too since my girl is up in Austin housesitting, and she took her daughter with her. A nice time to read for a little bit while I enjoy my cigarette. This morning also reminds me of one of my favorite Chinese poems.
This poem was written in China's golden age of poetry, the Tang Dynasty.
DRINKING ALONE WITH THE MOON
From a pot of wine among the flowers
I drank alone. There was no one with me --
Till, raising my cup, I asked the bright moon
To bring me my shadow and make us three.
Alas, the moon was unable to drink
And my shadow tagged me vacantly;
But still for a while I had these friends
To cheer me through the end of spring....
I sang. The moon encouraged me.
I danced. My shadow tumbled after.
As long as I knew, we were boon companions.
And then I was drunk, and we lost one another.
...Shall goodwill ever be secure?
I watch the long road of the River of Stars. |
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| The Yin and Yang of it all... |
[Jul. 2nd, 2006|04:40 am] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
After much research I've decided to begin training in Yang style tai chi. One of the reasons I joined this journal is to basically keep a track of my progresses/failures as I sort some much-needed things out in my life. The past few years have been basically unhappy for me, at least as far as my inner-self is concerned. Sure, there's been some great things going on as well, but what I'm speaking of comes from within, things that people can control but do not, because they get caught up in everyday living. It may not be all that bad, I know many people that can't stand to sit alone, they can't stand to sit in solitude and just think. Something has to be going on, they want no time for reflection, and can't fathom being alone. These people either hate or are on the verge of hating themselves, depending on others to take the pain away. At least that's how I see it, and I'm not to that point. I have always had the capacity to be by myself, and actually prefer it. I'm not anti-social, just comfortable in being alone.
Anyway, I need to change. I need to get back to where I was once before, both physically and mentally. I don't consider myself a "wet noodle" at this moment, but I feel I do need to get back into what makes my inner-self happy. I joined Gold's Gym to begin pumping iron again, something I used to do religiously but haven't because of "life" happening. I also want to start my tai chi as soon as time permits as well. I've read everything I can get my hands on concerning tai chi, and I feel this is the route I need to take. Some people do yoga (which I'm interested in as well), but I chose tai chi because of the other love of my life, martial arts. Yes, I view tai chi as a martial art, it's intended use. Since it came to America most people would lead you to believe it's some sort of meta-physical phenomenon like crystal healing. Sure it has some properties dealing with health and longevity, but to take the martial arts qualities out of it totally is like removing the Yang from the Yin/Yang diagram. What you have is only half the circle.
One of the best books I've read concerning tai chi, and the book to help me decide on this route is "Secrets of the Tai Chi Circle : Journey to Enlightenment" by Luke Chan. |
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